The results of IIT JEE are out. I didn’t make it. Got 9862 (98.1 percentile, even then I won’t get in). I don’t blame anyone except myself.
But I’ll rise again. Dust myself and work harder. I have to keep this in my fucking mind:
Irrespective of me studying or not, today would always have come, everything would’ve been the same except that my environment would’ve been happier if I’d worked harder. Similarly if I study these 10 months, when they pass like they have to, good times will come. Then I can have as much “fun” as possible.
Just waiting for the 28th of May for the final decisions regarding ISEET. If the amount of changes is favorable, I’ll take a drop. And this time I swear I’ll work harder. The greatest thing that stopped me from getting a good rank is procrastination. I kept thinking about the future, underestimated myself while overestimating IIT JEE. This lead to me losing all hope and eventually failing. Truth be told IIT JEE needs nothing other than hard work done smartly to crack. That is why dumb fuck girls bang big ranks. This time I will work blindly round the clock, without trying to predict the future. Lets see where that gets me.
An acquaintance of mine has secured a crazy awesome rank. Does that mean he has won? Yeah, I guess, for now at least. But this is not the end of the story. I’ll get into an IIT next year and start chasing that billionaire dream ASAP.
I was starting to think that days of studying are coming to an end. They would have come to an end if I hadn’t fooled myself into thinking that I’ve been working hard enough while deep inside my heart, I knew I wasn’t. Not this time. For the coming 10 months I’ll have to delve into PCM and convince myself that doing PCM is interesting. That is somewhat true. I know that if I work sincerely for the coming 10 months, IIT is gonna open its fucking huge gates for me.
God, just this one time, do me a favor. Let IIT JEE 2013 happen and not ISEET. What am I saying? Fuck God. We’ll see what that committee decides on the 28th. Fingers crossed hard. Ouch. Almost painful.
Being Zahir-ous 